I've got a jar of diiiirt!! - June 26th, 2006

Okay.

This may sound like some dramatic speech that has no reasonable meaning whatsoever, but it isn't. I just have to get some things off my chest.

I don't want to get anyone mad or anything, but I felt pretty left out this year. And particularly manda and emily didnt help very much with that. I hope this doesnt sound like a random attack on you guys, but I've been holding this in for a while. For a while, when I'd be around you guys I'd feel like the third blond wheel. I'd kinda feel like I was eavsdropping in a conversation you guys would be having.

And I also felt left out when I wasn't invited to join the Relay for Life thing. I dont know if there was a limit to the people who could walk and I don't think I would've enjoyed walking around a track for a night anyway, but i still felt left out when people would talk about it around me.

Then January kind of brought me down because while everybody was trying to get over the emo-ness of December, everybody forgot my birthday. That brought me down quite a bit.

All these things and the fact that my parents act like I'm a failure and kept telling me that I would have to take sophomore year all over again didnt help with the emo-ness of this year. I think this might have been my worst school year besides eighth grade.

I hope nobody will be angered by this entry or anything. Like I said before, I just needed to get some things off of my chest.